friends...or the lack there of

i'm so jealous of girls that have a group of very close friends. i wish i did--because at the point in my life i can honestly say that i have no girl friends. in my late teens, up until my mid 20's, i had two close friends-one now lives in Virginia (i live in NY) and the other i've just grown apart from. sometimes when i think about it, it makes me a bit sad. my husband is my bestfriend but i don't have any really good girl friends. i sit and think sometimes, damn! what's going to happen when i get pregnant? isn't that the time when you really need some girl friends? i won't even have a baby shower because i don't have any family to at least fill the void.
but anyway, i need to just cry me a river, build a bridge and get over it because i'm sure i'm not the only female who doesn't have any friends (even typing that was very sad).

i guess it's hard for women to stay friends. too much backstabbing, hating, copying (i had a friend that if you bought or had something, the next time you saw her she would have it too), and since i'm the only married one, i guess i'm an outsider.

well fuck it!!!! i'll have my own baby shower with me and my hubby and i'll just find a way not to feel like i'm missing anything by not having a girl friend to share things with.
i'm about to be 30 & making friends at 30 seems damn near impossible :( :(

oh well...